i miss you♥

♥don't you know that,i miss you badly?..T.T

what should i do? there's hard for me to smile without you..
i can't feel any other things except for you.. you're my everything..
why do this to me? leave me without any warmy smile,without the last huggie,muah muah..
i miss you damn much this few monthsT.T
what should i do to get your everything back?

♥>sorry for what i've done,honey(ex)..

i do regret of it,honestly wan):
gimme the last chance to make up for what happened in the past,please?
i know u hurt badly last time,maybe that's why you leave me..
but i guess you didn't know that..
i rather go die than seeing you sad,hurt T.T

♥...do you still love me?

yes or no? i hope it's a YES..
if it's really a yes,please just come back to me..
i will be everythin u need,i promised..
no matter what,u're still the most i love...my one and only love(hubby)..
i wont be like last time anymore..please?

♥..giving the fake smiley~

i'm always smiling and laughin like crazy in front of you..
but.. do u ever seen the pain,the scar inside?
every little of my smile,hides a big scar inside..
do you know this?
you're the only one who can heal it T.T
but will you do this?? ..for me??

♥_want you back..

just tell me what should i do to get you back):
i don't need anyone else but just you..
to me,you're ONE IN A MILLION..
wish i could just let you turn around,turn around and see my cry..
there's so much i need to say to you,so many reasons why..
you're the only one,who really knew me at all...

im tired..T.T

few months ago,i loose the one i love the most,the most important person to meT.T do u ever know hw important are u to me?T.T why? why don just give my the very last chance to change everythin?T.T why love her so much? don u knw that she's cheatin?T.T what shud i do? i really love u lot.. and..i do regret of what i've done to u.. im sorry baby..everytime see u sad for her but i cant do anythin?T.T damn! it's just to hard for me to stop carin u..but what shud i do?T.T i did so many things for u nw but its just seems like no useT.T what shud i do to get over u? can u tell me?T.T im tired of waitin... i tried to move on,but i failed to do so.. why don u just come back to me?T.T please baby,i need uT.T i hate it when im not being with u..i miss u badlyT.T do u ever knw hw much i love u? hw much i miss u?T.T i cant even stop thinkin if uT.T i really wish that we could just spend the one last time being together..i miss ur hugs,ur kisses,ur warmest smile,ur carin,ur every everythin..i miss it so muchT.T hw can i get u back?.. please baby,just come back to me? i will be everythin that u need,i promiz...plaese?T.T but even though u don wan,i will still love u as much as i can..cause..i cant stop it,i don knw hw to stop and i nvr wanna stop lovin u..last time,u were the one who keep waitin for me,did everythin for me..and nw,its my turn(: but baby,i just don wan u to sad for her anymore..please? just get over her.. she don worth it,she's such a fuckin biatch!T.T she was cheatin u knw? haiz...hw shud i tell u? can u accept this fact? i don wan u to sad for her anymore..

fuck! i hate it..my best fren,is she? umm...why? lied to me once and once agn,but u nvr feel sry?T.T u hurt me,u hurt him too! i don care if u hurt me,but why? don't you knw that he really love u? wtf that u really wan?! after broke up,texted me and said that u nvr like him?! talk like u don care anythin,even if u're hurtin sum1?! told me that u don wan any guys but just wan me,but after awhile..u go to him agn? and after broke up,told me that u don wanna hurt me anymore?! but u told all ur,my frens that u don knw what u did wrong,and u don think that's ur fault.. then if really don think that's ur fault,what for wanna keep act like very kesian in front of me,and him?! fuck u biatch! just tell me the truth! im tired of u! im not that stupid but why am i keep pitying u?keep believing u even though u're lying?! fuck! just get out of my life! please! im begging u nw! why? he chased u i knw,but if really don like him wad for wanna accept?! and hey! u are the one who knw hw much i love him the most! its okay if u accept him cause u really like him..but nw,u nvr like him then what for wanna accept?! fuck! i told u ord,don hurt him! and u promised me u wont..but last,what u did?! hurt me,hurt him! and u still tell everyone that's not ur fault,its him keep kacau u,chasin u..and u go tell my fren that u don wan him anymore,u wanna gimme back?! wtf! u think what is he!? a toy?! u took it when u need it,even though u're hurtin me.. and u gimme back when u get bored of it,even though u're hurtin him?! fuck u mother biatch! just stop lying! i tried to move on but why are u keep kacau me nw?! no more frens so come to me?! its hard for me to trust u anymore...u lied to me once and once agn,but still don think thats ur fault..what are u?! why do u think that i shud go to u if u need me?! haiz..i don knw u lar..i cant trust u anymore..im sorry..cause...u hurt me the most,and..i cant forgive u for hurtin the one i love the mostT.T

sumtimes..i just wish that everythin could just be like last time..he is still my dearest hubby,and she..is still my best frenT.T but...i knw...its impossible..im always cryin,but no one can see..im always laughin in front of everyone,but deep inside im cryin..i cant show it out,cause i don wan anymore to worried bout me anymore.. but im really tired...i just wish that whenever i cry,sad...he will come to me,comfort me and just let me lie on his shoulder..i don need him to talk,just stay by my side when i need him...just gimme a warm hug when i feel lonelyT.T but can it be in real life?T.T i m i s s y o u , unknown...

i love you...forever...

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♥stop showin my love..

if a single life is wad u really wan,i will respect ur decision...hm..till now,i still don regret of chosin u to be my boy...i will never forget every everythin tat happened between us,and i hope u too..a guy like u is very hard to get...if i knw tat earlier,mayb...i will never loose uu?...hmm..so sad...i feel so sorry to u,sorry for everythin tat i did to hurt u..but i didn't mean to did tat wan..
♥I MISS U,I MISS UR EVERYTHIN♥..
i duno wad else can i do 4 u,hm..i think the only thing i can do is just leave ur life?..(if u really don wan a love relation anymore)..but,i cant BARELY move..i wish to see u happy but i don wana loose u..hm..wad shud i do?break up is the best and also the only way to stop me from hurtin the one i love the most i think..
after we broke,i keep thinkin..y u wana break?y?y?...y cant u just stay?..bt after few days thinkin of the same ques..i think tats all my fault,im the one who keep makin problem..u've been tryin ur very best to did everythin for me just to see me smile,but i never ever appreciate of it..till now then only i feel regret and even start hating myself for bein like tat to u..u did everythin for me but i do nothing for u..and keep making u feel sad,feel hard in ur life..
im ur gf,i shud make u happy all the time,NOT sad..i sucks at being a gf..i hate myself for hurtin u,makin u sad,makin u feel hard..wtf!y i never see ur good and always say u bad...actually u are ord the best...im the BAD one..
i miss u..i seriously feel like hugging u real tight right now..and NEVER LET U GO AGAIN..i wan change..i really wan change...i wan change for u..but...its all too late...u wont come back to me and i will never have a great boy like u..hm..nvm la,just let u stay single so u can be more happy..

ps.even though u not my boy anymore,but i will never stop loving u..i might stop showin it but i wont stop it..WISH THE BEST FOR U..*waiting for u?my dumbdumb karambunai boy:]~*

♥our love

28.02.2009

*feel like dying...*



♥i...broke up with him...and i cried agn...i knw...he will never come back to me anymore...i loose the one i l0ve the most...haiz...y am i letting him go?...the only reason~i wan him to be happy,to get his freedom...i rather go die now if wan me to see him sad...i...i love uu honey...i wana tell uu tat i seriously love uu..i cant tell uu,i dun wan uu to feel bad...its not ur fault at all...its mine,i wan break wan...nt uu,don feel bad for it ya~



♥wad i wish is to be with uu forever...see uu happy,doin everythin uu like,sharin everythin to each other...bt nw...its seems like an impossible mission to keep uu here with me...i love to see uu happy,smile,laugh...jz...jz love to see honey being urself...cause.....i love ur everythin!!!i really wish to be with uu...bt...i cant...i cant so self-centered..i must think of honey too...i knw...i knw wad uu really wan is jz to get back ur freedom...i knw tat,so now....im jz tryin my very best to let uu go...im just lettin uu go...so please...never come back to me...i dun wan to be sad...being with me is nt tat good...im jz makin uu feel stress,sad and spoiled everythin...



♥i just wan to see uu happy agn...get ur freedom agn...nvm bout me...just do wadever uu wan...so yea...hm...must really happy..i dun wana see uu sad...tats y i let uu go,pls..btw,im still loving honey VERY much till now...:(:(

valentines day

*sadsad*

♥i miss him:(..actually i suppose to be together v him the whole day...bt..haiz...:(stupid chickenpox..i wana celebrate v him orh....:'(...nw i think he ord reach the church...the church's havin a valentines day party..i suppose to go too...bt...:'(...arghhhhhh...hate orh....!!!!!

♥i wana meet him........i wana celebrate v him orh.......haiz..we din meet 4 soooooooo long time ord lo....:(..i seriously feel like cryin man...the others can celebrate v their valentines....bt me?stayin hum ALONE!!:'(...haiz...my valentines day spoiled....:'(:'(:'(

♥do uu knw hw i feel??if uu duno...pls jz shut up and stop actin smart to said uu knw hw i feel...stop sayin bullshits to me!!i dun nid it!!arghhhhhhhhh:'(....:S

♥i need uu man...i need u i need u i need u!!!!i really hope we can celebrate together:'(:'(...i dun wan uu to go any place without me on TODAY:'(.....*cryin*